Desperate Attempts
Looking for someone to love
But I found nothing at all
Starving for Someone to Hold
I saw you coming from so far away
Looked into your eyes
I saw the beauty that once lay
Laying here with you and I know I'm alive
Don't ever wanna leave your side
Your hand it touches mine
I've never had a feeling so divine
But where are you now
I wanna lay in your arms once again
Waiting to see you
Making me lose all hope
I lay, lay in bed
Cause it's the only time that I see you
Laying here with you and I know I'm alive
Don't ever wanna leave your side
Your hand it touches mine
I've never had a feeling so divine
But where, where are you now
I want to lay in your arms once again
You walk away
And I'm getting used to the back of your head
You, you walk away
And I've never felt so scared
Cry just one more tear
I'll be over you in just one more year
Cry, just one more tear
I'll be over you in just one more year

Reality
Getting used the the way we are living
Nothings what it seems
So where do we go from here
When nothings not what it seems
Give me some place to hide
I need some time to think
I need some wings to fly
Stained pant legs
Torn jeans
Bruised Eyes
Those tears still taste the same
My lips still taste of salt
Getting used to the way we are living
Nothing is what it seems
SO where do we go from here
When nothing is what it seems
Just give me some place to hide
Just give me some time to thnk
I need some room to fly
Relationships are wearing thin
I will not fly away
Noone sings of love they can't have
That's why I'm saying good-bye
Getting used to the way we are living
When nothing's what it seems
So where do we go from here
When nothing is what it seems
I need some time to think
Just give me some wings to fly

Nothing's Gonna Change
You say nothing's gonna change
But I can't remember the way you taste
You said nothing's gonna change
But I can't remember how it felt
To lay with you
I used to cry with you
But I'm better off to die alone
It still hurts even after we've grown apart
You said you'd miss me if I was gone
But who spent the nights crying on and on
You said nothing's gonna change
But I can't remember the way you taste
You said nothing's gonna change
And now it's easier to shy away
Please leave the lights off
Cause in the darkness I'll pray
For better things
Like life and love and everything in between because
Nothing's gonna change
Then why are you walking away
Then why are you leaving me here to stay
You said nothings gonna change
Nothing will ever change

Leave
The nights come out the stars they shine
They're just as beautiful when your eyes lock mine
Oh how they call
Yes the call
They said it wouldn't be the same
But I know it's just the same old game
Oh how you lie
Yes you lie
So why can't I try to stay
And how come it's so hard
To leave today
So I sit here all alone
And I think now it's time to go
Oh how I cry
Yes I cry
But it's better if I go away
It would hurt you more if I had stayed
I would have died
I would die
So why can't I try to stay
And how come it's so hard to leave today
Never Gonna See you Again
I stand here waiting
Wanting you to come back to me
Your eyes are like the ocean
A sort of endless dream
And as you turn to leave
I see the last of your smile
Why did I feel like I was flying
When really I was falling down
Everyday that I spent with you
My feet would never touch the ground
Now the scent of you is poison
And the taste of you is gone
Why did you have to let me go
I know I'll never see you again
I looked into your eyes
As you looked to the floor
Something is different in your soul
As you began to stand to leave
You kissed me softly
And I breathed in the last of you
Why did I feel like I was flying
When really I was falling down
Everyday that I spent with you
My feet would never touch the ground
Now the scent of you is poison
And the taste of you is gone
Why did you have to let me go
You know I'll never see you again
And as I try to understand
My mind begins to spin
But you are gone
Leaving me to a world
Of endless songs
Why did I feel like I was flying
When really I was falling down
Oh how I fell down
And I'm trying to find the words
To say to you
But they're all wrong
But they're all wrong

I Don't Understand
I don't understand
What I couldnt mean to you
I'm just a rut in this fucked up world
What can I do?
Don't stop your life
Because of me
Let me be the one to
Why can't I find what I'm looking for... for so long
Why does everything look so bare
When you're not standing there
This hurts me too
I died about a thousand times
People asking me if I'm okay
Of course I am... of course I'm not
Of course I'm not
Thinking about all the times we had
We wish we had them not
I can't feel the way I used to anymore
These thick bars are keeping me away
When I look into your eyes
It makes me feel sick
It makes me feel sick
It's too much to think of anymore
This tension has grown too thick... too thick
People keep on asking me
If I'm okay
Of course I am
Of course I'm not
Of course I'm not... I'm not... I'm not

Blue Eyed Stranger
Where are you blue eyed stranger
When the world is tough
Where are you blond haired boy
When everyone's had enough
I've grown tired of this place
But I can't stand to leave
To run is to accept
To bleed is to believe
Where is the familiarity
When everything's in shreds
Where are the smiling faces
When all I see is insecurities
Where will you go?
Cause I will follow you
Tell me what you want
Because that's what I'll do
Just don't let me fade away
Please don't let me fall today
Cause everywhere I go I see your face
Where are you blue eyed stranger
When the world is tough
Where are you blond haired boy
When everyones had enough
These misguided souls
Are holding misguided wholes
That never seem to fade
Where are you blond haired boy
When everyone's had enough

Becky
Becky
Was born on May Second
She was turning 17
In what seemed a second
We called her darling
She called her mommy mother
She was different from another
*But in a good way
She danced a beautiful dance
With her blond hair
She made the boys stare
*But who wouldn't
She liked Johnny
Yes Johnny Depp
She was smart
*In fact she took fine arts
She had a smile
A laugh heard from a mile
So when you're feeling sad
We are here for you
It won't cost you a penny
So happy, birthday our Rebecca
And just remember
That we all love you

If you were a verb I'd use you
The change jingles in my pocket As i walk across this lonely street The streets are glass Like the secrets they must keep And everywhere I look The silent peoples faces say It tastes like warm hot chocolate On a cool autumn's day Our breath lingers In that tree we sat beaneath A year ago The leaves are scarce From the salt of the earth To the shine of your hair My hands in the mud But you're never there If you were a verb I think I'd use you often In every sentence you'd stand And when I read my own words My eye's would cry foul But still, there you'd be And it tastes like warm hot chocolate On a cool autumn's eve And our breath lingers In the tree we sat beneath A year ago The leaves are scarce And I sit there Without your embrace

What world do we live in?
So tell me sir,
Where would your daughter go?
With ten percent funding
She'd be left alone

Sitting out in the cold
Someones front porch
No one to keep her warm
That's pathetic
Real pathetic, sir

So what are you gonna do?
Shun your daughter cause she's gay?
Well what the hell are you?
"Follow my rules?"
Quite frankly sir, your rules make no sense!

What kind of world do we live in?
What kind of world do we live in?
What world do we live in?

Deep they hide
The trees are getting oh so bare and fall is coming to you When time stands still I'm going to take my chances (you won't be looking) The air is crisp (It bites me with every stride) I've become too old for this and too young too young to be alone (too young to feel lost) Two birds chirp they've never felt so alive Worms struggle in the dirt So deep they hide The air is crisp (it bites me with every stride) I've become too old for this And too young Too young to be alone (too young to feel lost) The first snow flakes So cold as it hits my tongue And my head has frozen No hat to keep it warm The air is crisp It trips me with every lie To lost in this world to be alone

Kiss Away the Pain
So tell me
Did you find a new girl
One that makes you happy?
Does she make you smile. 7791
Tell me does she kiss away the pain?
Tell me, will it ever be the sami
Cause I miss you so much
I long to feel your face
As our lips embrace
And I miss you so much
The day are spent as awakening dreams
And the nights
Are so long
So tell me will you be happy if we're through
Now is there anything I can do for you
Cause I'll wait forever
And I'll walk down the aisle
And turn back
to be the one that holds your smile
Cause I miss you so much
I long to feel your face
As our lips embrace
And I miss you so much
The days are spent as awakening dreams
And the nights
Are so long
Now will you,
Kiss me if we're alone?
Cause I'll stand here
And wait till that moment comes again
Till it comes again
And I miss you so much
When I felt the touch of your face
I cried, and I died
Cause you walked away
deep into the night
Will it ever come again?
Will to come again?
The nights are so long
they're so long

New Song
I heard a new song today
On the radio
It may have been snowing
The winds are blowing
And when you think back
To when we sat alone
With our burdens stone
It's been so long
Since we've been happy
Together
Cause we're better off alone
Or so It seems to you
But me,
I've been unhappy since we said good-bye
The last time
And I cry when I sit alone
Singing love songs
Written by somebody else
And it's been so long since I cried myself to sleep
But tonight
I think I might
Cause this video is playing over
And its talking to me
Talking to me
So tell me if you've had enough
Tell me if you're sad enough to say good-bye
Or welcome me
Please welcome me
Welcome me

To Be With You (*)
To be with you
Seems to be so true
Yet it feels like a crime
To hold your hand within mine
Not sure whether to care
Are we a possible pair
Your feelings to me seem to be so unclear
I want to stare into your eyes untainted
But still alone forever I have waited
How long until I am with you again
The moral confusion is driving me insane
How should I greet you, how to say goodbye
I hope to embrace your beauty
But instead I am left with a sigh
Not intended to be so forward
Nor intended to be so lude
My actions always seem so awkward
And remarks come out crude
You are delightfully clever
And wonderously unpredictable
Gawking good looks
and my opinion to you is respectable
Good times are to be had
Times of warmth to melt away the sad
So as I rest my head nightly
I imagine you embracing me, softly yet tightly
You embrace me softly yet tightly
And as I wish to see you soon
I remember we can see the same moon
Oh no I lost the moon

Can't we just pretend
I looked at you,
You smiled with those eyes
I looked back at you
And I can't lie
When I said good-bye
I loved you still
So tell me when will everything be okay
Cause I'm frowning now
The sun shines another day
I looked into your eyes,
Suddenly turned grey
I'm in love with my best friend
This feeling has to end
The pictures on my wall
Don't make much sense no more
and the arrows they're pointing down
Me, I don't worry much no more
So tell me when will everything be okay
Cause I'm frowning now
The sun shines another day
I looked into your eyes
Suddenly turned grey
I'm in love with my best friend
this feeling has to end
Then, I, I laughed in fates eye
I told her it's all just a game
Me, I've lived a sheltered life
Well can't we just pretend
I'm in love with my best friend
Can't this just end
Can't we just pretend
I lived a sheltered life
I'd never meet my best friend

100 Miles
The calls are getting late
and I am getting tired
This little game your having me play is old
and it's worn and out of style
I'd rather walk 100 miles
Then sit here with you and fake my smiles
The crossed out lines in my songs
Is where you entered them and I'm lost,
Within the pages of these notes
With no hope of getting out
No hope of ever getting out
It's getting cold outside at night
It will be time soon again
For me to hold your smile within my hands
But I'd rather walk 100 miles
Then sit here with you faking my smiles
The crossed out lines in my songs
is where you entered them
And I'm lost
With no hope of getting out
No hope of ever getting out